That is the sound of a level 78 priest healing a normal Forge of Souls with a suicidal level 80 warrior in ICC 10/25 gear. Not to mention the similarly geared DK and warlock. Oh, and my tank was a 79 pally.
It is also the sound of the same priest healing CoS and Halls of Lightning.
Remarkably, in the what seems like 9-10 instances we ran, there were only 3 deaths, 2 of them mine.
I do not scream while healing in Gun’drak or HoS.
Those I’m actually a little bored in.
And therein lies the question of whether or not I’m cut out to be a healer.
Shield, Prayer of Mending…
Jump. Jump. Jump.
Oh look! Something shiny!
HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHERE DID THE TANK’S LIFE GO?
I am literally doing this low-volume scream while I heal, when I’m not distracted by a brightly colored bit of string on the desk.
And my husband can hear it while he’s in the next room.
That CANNOT be the most reassuring sound a tank hears from his healer.
Of all the runs I did last night, I think the FoS may have been the most useful in terms of learning how to heal.
There was considerably more party damage than in anything else I’ve run so far and it forced me to actually use those party heals instead of just tossing a Renew on everyone out of boredom and calling it good.
Binding heal was put to use frequently. How the hell was I taking so much damage?
Learning or not, I was still screaming the entire time, yelling at the little life bars to quit dropping, freaking out because my GCD is soooooo goddamn slow.
They managed to kill me in about 2 seconds with mirrored soul at the end, I couldn’t even shield myself because it was on cooldown…
The freakout syndrome is completely different than my PvP jitters.
Understandable, as it’s two different types of potential for failure (or in the case of my PvP record, a guarantee of failure).
The difference between being killed by another player whose skill outmatches mine is relatively easy for me to accept versus letting someone in my group die.
As a healer, I feel if someone in my group dies it’s because I didn’t save them. Never mind the fact that they may have been standing in the pool of instant-death, I feel like I must have missed something that would have made the difference. Also never mind that I am screaming obscenities at them and questioning everything from their intelligence to their heritage to their sexual preference for animals while holding myself responsible for their death.
So I guess I’m looking for either reassurance that this is a normal phase of learning to heal or a warning that it means I’m going to give myself a coronary and I should just spec shadow.
Am I doomed or will this go away? Healers, let me know.