Do not want

There’s a lot of things I do not want. They most likely far outnumber the things that I do want.

The biggest WoW-related thing that I do not want at this moment has nothing to do with Mists of Panderia and how badly (or not) they may destroy my characters.

It has nothing to do with the new changes to the D3 real money auction house. Changes of which I’m still not really sure how I feel.

Nothing about gold farmers, loot ninjas, trade chat trolls.

What I don’t want is actually very surprising for me, considering how much it has been something that I wanted and actively strove for in the past.

So what is it?

Heroics.

That’s right, I couldn’t care less about heroic raiding right now.

It started some time after I transferred over to the Alliance side. But there were so many other factors making me unhappy (being Alliance, raiding on my priest, doing 25-man content, that obnoxious guy that wouldn’t shut up in vent) that it was hard to tease it out of the ball of general discontent.

When I started looking for a new home, I found myself deliberately searching out guilds less progressed than I was (H Morchok down on my priest). I didn’t mind working towards another “first” madness kill. I was looking for a guild with a more casual approach to progression. Heroics might happen. They might not.

My current guild has progressed to the point where on most nights we clear DS in one night on both teams.

So on Tuesday I clear it on Selwyn in the second team and again on Friday with Arioch in the first team. Yes, Team 2 goes first. Don’t ask me.

There are nights where we struggle to get it down, pushing past raid end time and sometimes even coming in the second night. Fights that should be no problem for us get bogged down in a mire of variables such as new people in the roster or mental instability of a raid member or the fight just being super buggy (I’m looking at you, trash before Ultraxxion!).

On the nights we’re good, we’re good. On the nights we’re not… we’re pretty fucking bad. Consistency is a big gap in our skill set.

And I’m OK with that. We do eventually get it down. We teach new people the fights. We find new, more efficient ways of getting the kill. We also find a lot of inefficient ways to die. I think Thomas Edison said something about that in regards to inventing the light bulb. People get really excited about their gear drops. (Or whine worse than me when they don’t see a drop for a while.) But it’s all good. Unless there’s a personality twitch in the evening, we generally have a good time.

It’s a game and I’m having fun.

And then the rumblings begin for the heroics.

We had such a (mostly) good thing going! I was down to raiding twice a week, which was perfect. That left plenty of room for the occasional nip into FL or to run something older or to play an alt or to just log off and be in the real world for a while. I’m just a kitten in the raid, killing shit (even when healing), and being happy.

I don’t think we’ve been able to duplicate our heroic Morchok kill and we’ve been instructed to watch videos on another 3-4 fights. (Which, by the way, less than half the raid actually did. My guess would be they don’t care much about heroics either.)

Whatever. I’m just a raid kitten. If the box has a skull on it, so be it.

The raid leader tends to get frustrated pretty quickly so we generally only do a handful of attempts before moving on.

During the raid last week, we were moving along so-so, I think we failed a couple times at Warlord Zon’ozz, and we were in mid combat on Ultraxxion when the raid leader starts talking about how next week we’re going to try to do this fight on heroic, oh and Arioch, you need to go fire for that.

Long post is long so will be continued. I’m pretty sure most of you can guess how I feel about switching to fire.